Best Asses EVER! (Cont.)

Well hello,
I think I've been ignoring my blog for soo long so I came with a gift, THE BEST ASS I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE! Enjoy girls!!

Kat,
If you see this plz call me immediately...

School...

I'm at my school right now, and it hasn't started yet. I acctually love coming early because I can watch the cemetery view(that safe place thing) or read a book. Right now I can't do neither of them cos I forgot my book at home and I'm too sleepy for watching outside. Even I drank a coffee but I still feel tired. I guess I can just sleep now...

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Oh. Hello there! Seeing the songs I just shared and comparing to the ones Ash suggested me that I had to listen, there's a huge difference. So, you see, the thing is, we ARE kinda different. ^_^

So, she likes tattoos, a sink(erm, ville valo) and hard songs. And SHE WANTS A BOYFRIEND! Oh brother, come on! Why go like some idiot and spend your precious time on him when there's a pretty high chance he'll hurt you? Sure, if someone likes you you SHOULD give it a try before saying no but going after someone? mhmh! No way! I personally find the teenage hormon induced one-sided crushes unnecesarry. Yes, I know I'm weird but I don't care anymore. Life goes on. I have abandonment issues.(so I prefer to keep my distance rather than leave my soul to someone else's mercy ^_^) Yes I AM very self consious. So? I can evaluate myself from an objective POV. How cool is that? ^_^ Well, I'm not going to go on rambling about my psychological flaws, everybody has some, light or hard, but everyone must've been through some stuff. Anyway, what was I saying? Yes. Go ask Ash about her preferences. I told you a little about mines. ^_^ 

Rammstein - Stirb nicht vor mir (Don't die before I do)

Damn Listen this song before you die or you WILL be missing something. And in my opinion the music video puts the song in a whole different situation, so I suggest you read this story with this*drools slightly at the thought*: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6890244/1/

I've talked about them before ^_^ And the thing is, I love them. Really, a mysterious emotionally broken(okay, retarded :D) ninja and a loving and caring sensei. Come on, they are ADORABLE! Has nothing to do with gender, they are just cute together as people. Anyway, don't watch the music video and read the story if you wonder what feelings I got from this song. And still getting. A lot. Anyway, few tips if you decide to read the story but don't know Naruto are down at the end.

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The night opens her lap
The child's name is loneliness
It is cold and motionless
I cry softly into time
I don't know what your name is
But I know that you exist
I know that sometime
someone will love me

He comes to me every night
No words are left to say
With his hands around my neck
I close my eyes and pass away

I don't know who he is
In my dreams he does exist
His passion is a kiss
And I can not resist

I wait here
Don't die before I do
I wait here
Don't die before I do

I don't know who you are
I know that you exist
Don't die
Sometimes love seems so far
I wait here
Your love I can't dismiss
I wait here

All the houses are covered in snow
And candle light in the windows
They lie there together
And I
I only wait for you

I wait here
Don't die before I do
I wait here
Don't die before I do

I don't know who you are
I know that you exist
Don't die
Sometimes love seems so far
I wait here
Your love I can't dismiss

Don't die before I do

I put here the lyrics in english, if you'd like sure you could search for the original german lyrics ^_^

* tips: shinobi: ninja ; ANBU: secret agency, the members' identifications are not to be revealed so they wear porcelain masks and they have nicknames ; Kakashi is also known as the Copy Nin.

Happiness

I am so happy right now because I just bought 2 albums of HIM and I feel like I am in heaven on earth. Actually I have their last albums (for my b.day gift) and today I bought their other 2 albums. I feel like a real fan right now I mean this was the first time for me to have more than one albums of the singer/group/musician that I like a lot. And I have some sort of cloth with their sign on it and I made a powerpoint show about their lead singer Ville Valo for turkish class and I watch Ville's interviews and stuff everyday and I watch their concert videos and stuff... I guess right now I'm their biggest fan in Turkey and I feel like I'm not because I'm still trying to memorize their songs (well, I love HIM more than The Rasmus but I know every song of the rasmus, not HIM) and I believe that there are some fans dedicated their lifes to them. I can't be that passionate but I can have a heartagram tattoo. But nothing more...

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Trading Yesterday - Love Song Requiem

Emily will find a better place to fall asleep
She belongs to fairy tales that I could never be
The future haunts with memories that I could never have
And hope is just a stranger wondering how it got so bad

I die each time you look away
My heart, my life will never be the same
This love will take my everything
One breath, one touch will be the end of me

You could be the final straw that brings me back to earth
Ever-waiting airports full of the love that you deserve
Wishing I could find a way to wash away the past
Knowing that my heart
Will break, but at least the pain will last

I die each time you look away
My heart, my life will never be the same
This love will take my everything
One breath, one touch will be the end of me

Emily will find a better place to fall asleep
Maybe she will save me in the oceans of her dream
And maybe someday love
Maybe someday love
Maybe someday love

Trading Yesterday - Shattered (Kat)

Way to 'hope'y than I feel right now ^_^

Snow Patrol - Run (Kat)

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Chasing Cars -Kat

Lyrics inside ^_~

Hey! The school has started and I'm so happy right now because everything is fine and I don't have an idea what should I write. I can say that I was passing by so I wanted to say hi. And by the way I DID call you Kat and you DIDN'T answer as always. So you call me...

Hallo! Ich...Oh. Sorry. I forgot. I´m currently at school, in the computer lab. And the school is in german...so...you get the point :D Miss me? well, I´ve been lazy, didn´t want to change google accounts. Well, whatever now. Just bored. I´ll come back later. Oh, and Ash, YOU DIDNT CALL babe. Well, take your time, call me whenever you want ;) Luv ya! -yes, these are school effects on me. Weird, dont you think?

The list of the series that I watch/used to watch/watched/will watch

Are you ready for the longest list you'll ever seen? Well here it is;

1.Avatar: The Last Airbender (American I guesss)

2.Being Human (British)

3.Birdie Buddy (Korean)

4.Boys Over Flowers (Korean)

5.Camelot (British)

6.Chuck (American)

7.Coupling (British)

8.Doctor Who (British)

9.Dream High(Korean)

10.Fallen (American)

11.Family Guy (American)

12.Friends (American)

13.Glee (American)

14.Gossip Girl (American)

15.Hell Cats (American)

16.Hot In Cleveland (American)

17.House MD. (American)

18.How I Met Your Mother (American)

19.Mad Love (American)

20.Mary Stayed Out All Night (Korean)

21.Merlin (British)

22.Moonlight (American)

23.Nikita (American)

24.Off The Map (American)

25.Playful Kiss (Korean)

26.Pretty Little Liars (American)

27.Pushing Daisies (American)

28.Secret Garden (Korean)

29.Sherlock (British)

30.South Park (American)

31.Supernatural (American)

32.Switched At Birth (American)

33.Teen Wolf (American)

34.The Big Bang Theory (American)

35.The Cape (American)

36.The Lying Game (American)

37.The Nine Lifes Of Chloe King (American)

38.The Simpsons (American)

39.The Vampire Diaries (American)

40.Torchwood (British)

41.Tower Prep (American)

42.Ugly Betty (American)

43.Unnatural History (American)

44.Veronica Mars (American)

45.Warehouse 13 (American)

46.White Collar (American)

47.You're Beautiful (Korean)
48.American Dad (American)
49.Charlie's Angels (American)
50.Lost Girl (Canadian)
51.New Girl (American)
52.Secret Circle (American)
53.Tamna Island (Korean)
54.Subugatory (American)
55.Turkish For Starters (German)
56.Heartstrings (Korean)
57.My Girlfriend Is A Gumiho (Korean)
58.City Hunter (Korean) 

my new phone (Ash)

From now on I'll be able to post new things from my cellphone :)

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Right Here In My Arms (Ash)

I just love this song. It explanes my feelings to him. I just love Ville Valo :D <3

She is smiling like heaven's down on Earth
And sun is shining so bright on her
And all her wishes have finally come true
And her heart is weeping
This happiness is killing her.
It's true,
She's in love

She'll be right here in my arms,
So in love,
She'll be right here in these arms
She can't let go.

She'll be right here in my arms,
So in love,
She'll be right here in these arms
She can't let go.

So hard she's trying
But her heart won't turn to stone... oh no.
And she keeps on crying
'Cause I won't leave her alone,
She'll never be alone...

She'll be right here in my arms,
So in love,
She'll be right here in these arms
She can't let go.

She'll be right here in my arms,
So in love,
She'll be right here in these arms
She can't let go.

Curiosity (Ash)

I know I shared too much info. about music, The Rasmus and stuff. Well I can say that right now I'm in the middle of depression. I just learned that Lauri had a son in 2008 from his grilfriend and right now I don't have an idea about their relationship so I feel like I was wron about him. I always thought that Ville Valo would do something like that but Lauri did instead of him. I'm gonna share two interviews right now.They are The Rasmus interviews as you know. I just feel like Ville is talking instead of him...
Q: This is your first time in Istanbul. Could you able to tour here?
Pauli: No, but tomorrow we can. I like Istanbul, it's different than other Europe countries.

Q: In The Shadows become very popular in Istambul like other countries. Did you know that this song is gonna be that popular?
Pauli: No. Our last album was really successful in Finland. We wanted to make another album as successful as our last album, but we wasn't expecting this much success.

Q: Why "In The Shadows" has three music videos?
Pauli: The first one was for sountrack of a movie called "Bad Boys" in Finland. The second was for Europe. Then America wanted another one for them.

Q: Your first five album was just popular in Finland. But "Dead Letters" is popular in Europe too. For you, what makes this album that popular?
Pauli: We weren't that good at previous albums.We were too young. This album successful beacuse we are better now.

Q: Can we say that you are doing Love Metal like HIM does?
Eero: No, I prefer dramatic rock.
After that they make another interview in 2008 after their album black roses:

Q: You are back to blonde hair. This time, are you working ome you image or is it about your current mood?
Lauri: My emotions, I felt more bright (I think he ment to say more optimistic than other albums.) thats why I dyed my hair again.

Q: Most of your songs are about love. Where is the place of love in your life?
Lauri: At the left, between hate and anger.

Q: Which The Rasmus song is more personal than others?
Lauri: Immortal

Q: What about a solo album. Have you ever thought that?
Lauri: No, I won't do such a think like that (LIAAAAAAAAAAAAR!!!!!). We belong to each other.

Q: Last question, how was 2008 for you. What was the most importand experience you've had this year?
Lauri: I had a son in april. This feeling is fantastic. (And I die. Gosh I still can't believe that he has a son which is at the same age with my little cousin.)

Best Playlist EVER! (Ash)

P.S. for Kat: this is the list that I was talking about.
Still Standing - The Rasmus
Bittersweet - Apocalyptica feat. Ville Valo and Lauri Ylönen
No Fear - The Rasmus
Right Here In My Arms - HIM
Wings Of A Butterfly - HIM
Join Me In Death - HIM

I'm here Kat (Ash)

I got your message!

HIM (Ash)

Finally I'm freeeeeeee. I finally can listen something besides The Rasmus. I am listening HIM and I'm loving it. What a coinsidence they are from finland too:). I am seriously going back to Finland, desicion made!
Right now I'm listening join me in death, I've read that it's about Romeo and Juliet. Another Shakespeare fan. So here I am, planing to steal borrow Johnny Depp with green eyes' guitar plectrum (The thing helps to play guitar). Funny times...

More The Rasmus (Ash)

I getting Opheliac. The Rasmus is officially the best band ever for now. I mean they are in the same level with The Veronicas for me (Kat knows how I am obsessed with The Veronicas). Today I've searched everywhere just to find a The Rasmus album. Guess what happened, I couldn't find it (Ok, this was too easy for guessing). Then I searched at google and I finally found one album (Hide from the sun) but I can't buy it 'cos you should pay it online and my dad doesn't sooo.
But my revenge will be taken:). I wanted their album as my birthday present and I wondering how he is gonna find it:D. Muahahahahaha I am so devious.
Right now I'm listening other songs of The Rasmus and I busy with loving them:). I found those from my Uncle (He is a real rocker) and I uploaded them so right now I'm listening them. Here is my playlist (They are all The Rasmus. Don't expect something different):
Shot
Last Generation
Dead Promises
Night After Night (Out Of The Shadows)
Heart Of Misery
Lucifers Angel
Keep Your Heart Broken
Immortal
Well That's it I guess...

Boooooooooored (Ash)

I hate when I can't talk with Kat. I feel like something is missing. Right now, her phones battery is dead and she can't charge it because they are moving and her charger is at their new house and she can't go there until they pack everything (I guess). So right now I'm writing things in my "Musebook" and listening music. Here is my playlist:
Still Standing - The Rasmus
In The Shadows - The Rasmus
21 Guns - Green Day
Holiday - Green Day
Opheliac - Emilie Autumn
One Of Us - Joan Osborne
I Don't Care - Apocalyptica feat. Adam Gontier
Sing - My Chemical Romance
Bittersweet - Apocalyptica feat. Ville Valo and Lauri Ylönen (<3)
First Day Of My Life - The Rasmus
Time To Burn - The Rasmus
No Fear - The Rasmus
Sail Away - The Rasmus
Yep I mostly listen The Rasmus so what, I am a fan I have rights for this:D.
Oh and I finally decided which tattoo(s) I'm gonna have a lucky star at one of my fingers and I want them to write "Opheliac" somewhere in my ribs and I want Atatürk's sign at my arm. I don't know when I'm gonna do it but I'm definitely doing it so...

Amandaaaaa (Ash)

Maybe I can't completely disconnect. He is still a foolish silly boy for me (32 years old boy). He has a great sence of humour. I haven't heard a joke about sex from him yet. But I like the dark side of him. You know, the dark crow/raven thing with all those black feathers or platinum yellow hair with all that black clothes and skinny jeans. He is still like that , I can feel it in my soul. And the good news is he is still with his group and I still love him. Heeey!!!!!! I know one day he is gonna read these stuff so I have to say that I am NOT  a professional stalker!

I like this video and the song and Amada:) Isn't it cute!

I really didn't like the song and the video. But I like Lauri's feathers, the part when he screamed Amanda's name and the part when they were having fun at the car.

I like his nailpolish <3

@MTV EMA

I love his face when he is singing?

I need that album. They don't produce their old albums anymore and I hate that thing. Good luck with finding that for my birthday Kat:)

Ok maybe I just lost the liking thing to Lauri (Ash)

I know he is cute but I just learn that he is going solo. And I listened his solo songs and they weren't that good. He was better when he was with the group. They ment to be together. He changed like other singers. His songs are electronic not rock and I hate when that happens. First Lady Gaga, then Jennifer Lopez, after her his ex-husband Mark Anthony, Britney Spears and now Lauri. I'm about to cry! Don't touch the music, ok some electronic songs are good but not all of them so please my dearest, lovely singers don't make your songs electronic!!!

The Rasmus Day (Ash)

Yay! I'm doing The Rasmus day today. Today, I'm just gonna share videos, photos and other things about The Rasmus. Lets start with my favorite videos.

It's hard to believe that it came to this
You paralyzed my body with the poisoned kiss
For 40 days and nights I was chained to your bed
You thought that was the end of the story
Something inside me called freedom came alive
Living in a world without you

You told me, my darling
Without me, you're nothing
You taught me to look in your eyes
And fed me your sweet lies

Suddenly someone was there in the window
Looking outside at the sky that had never been blue
Ah, there's a world without you
I see the light
Living in a world without you
Ah, there is hope to guide me
I will survive
Living in a world without you

It's hard to believe that it came to this
You paralyzed my body with the poisoned kiss
For 40 days and nights I was chained to your bed
You thought that was the end of the story
Something inside me called freedom came alive
Living in a world without you

You put me together
[ Find more Lyrics on http://mp3lyrics.org/rxLG ]
Then trashed me for pleasure
You used me again and again
Abused me, confused me

Suddenly naked I run through your garden
Right through the gates of the past and I'm finally free
Ah, there's a world without you
I see the light
Living in a world without you
Ah, there is hope to guide me
I will survive
Living in a world without you

It's hard to believe that it came to this
You paralyzed my body with the poisoned kiss
For 40 days and nights I was chained to your bed
You thought that was the end of the story
Something inside me called freedom came alive
Living in a world without you

It's hard to believe that it came to this
You paralyzed my body with the poisoned kiss
For 40 days and nights I was chained to your bed
You thought that was the end of the story
Something inside me called freedom came alive
Living in a world without you

Ah, there's a world without you
I see the light
Living in a world without you
Ah, there is hope to guide me
I will survive
Living in a world without you
Living in a world without you
Living in a world without you
Living in a world without you
Living in a world without you

Cute guys holding puppies, best porn ever! (Ash)

Today is my "best ....... ever" day. Ok you can see the photos now;

Ian Somerhalder

Johnny Depp

Ryan Gosling

Best Asses EVER! (Ash)

I never be able to understand men's ass thing. They love girls asses. But after those photos I can understand it. Ok now I admit that I'm a professional stalker:)

 Ok, I know that his son and I are at the same age. But still that doesn't change the reality. He has the best ass I've ever seeen.

 Well, well, well... Look who is here. His ass is as cute as himself.

 Johnny Depp with green eyes. Ville Valo has it and he knows that (Thanks Elif).

 Ok maybe he has a little ass but that doesn't change the fact that he is sooooooooooooo cute:) I mean c'mon he is shirtlesss and I really worked hard to find a photo of him like this. So enjoy!

 The man. Johnny Depp. He has an ass and I love it!

 Guess who is wearing Calvin Klein. Yep Taylor Lautner! And this photo is my laptop's wallpaper. Another proof that I am a stalker/opheliac

Adam Levine. No need words! Best ass ever (After Billie Joe Armstrong's)

Being A Fan (Ash)

I'm officially a The Rasmus fan.
I think being a fan makes stalking easier. I mean when you become a fan of something, you like that thing so much but the thing or the person doesn't know that then you start to collect photos and search things about him/her/it, you simply stalk it. So being a fan is simply being a stalker only being a fan isn't illegal (I think so)
So The Rasmus, I finally found what I've been searching. Their songs are simply romantic for me. If you check the lyrics they are better than the most romantic song in the world (For me it's Only Hope) and guess who writes them? Their vocalist Lauri Ylönen. His story is really shoking. He left school for his band The Rasmus. He was already knew that they are gonna be successful so he droped school and started to work on his music and lyrics. Their first album was Peep. Then they finished their second albun which is called Playboys in 1997. In 1998 they finished their third album which is called Hell Of A Tester. After that Janne Heiskanen their drummer left the group and their another high school friend Aki Hakala joined instead of him. After the change they published their fourth album Into. After that they made their most successful album whichis called Dead Letters. Their most successful songs from this album are; In The Shadows (My fave.), First Day of My Life, In My Life, Guilty and Funeral Song. After this album they finished another album which is called Hide From The Sun. But with that album they spend lots of money and they decided to give a break. After 3 years they put up for sale their new album which is called Black Roses. This album was successful too. One of my fave. song (Livin' In A World Without You) was in that album.
Thats it for now. I  hope you liked the group as much as I did.

Isn't he sooooo cute :)

I need help (Ash)

Ok, I know this is kind of wierd but I've been seeing the vocalists of rock groups in my dreams and I've been  doing some really wierd stuff (you really don't wanna hear it). So far I've seen;
1. Green Day's vocalist Billie Joe Armstrong ( <3 )

2. The Rasmus' vocalist Lauri  Ylönen ( <3 )

3. HIM's vocalist Ville Valo ( <3 )

4. My Chemical Romance's vocalist Gerard Way ( <3 <3 because he is half Italian <3 <3 <3 be Italian <3 <3 <3)

Ok, I admit that they are all 30 year old guys (Even Billie Joe Armstrong has a son who is 16 year old) but I can't stop this. My subconscious is seriously dangerous. There are wierd things inside it.
Actually they are all from (Or their origin is) Finland (Except Gerard Way, he is Italian and I'm loving it)! And I've been there! I've seen the guys (They are cute as heaven) and the girls (Thet are as fat as a pig. Yes, I am serious).
Maybe I have a weakness for the guys from Finland (Which make them Scandinavian). But who doesn't have? They have seriously hot blond hair and Ice Blue/Turqouise eyes. I know even now you are melting as an ice cream which is in a volcano or microwave.  I need to go Finland again. Need to go, need to find boy, need to eat him, need to need to...

I don't care (Ash)

I share this song for the douchebag who used me.

I try to make it through my life, in my way, there's you
I try to make it through these lies, and that's all I do

Just don't deny it,
Don't try to fight this ,and deal with it
and that's just part of it,

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
Cause i swear (i swear),i don't care

I try to make you see my side
Always trying to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That's all they do

I'm getting buried in this place
I got no room your in my face
don't say anything just go away

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
Cause i swear (i swear) i don't care

[ instrumental ]
love changing everything
You won't be left for me x2


If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
Just and and leave this all behind
Cause i swear(i swear)i don't care

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care(i don't care), I don't care(i don't care)
Just go ahead and leave this all behind
I don't care(i swear), I don't care
At all...

New days, new decisions (Ash)

I've changed
I can say that because I did changed.
I'm no longer that child who always want to have all attention.
I don't know how or why. And I made some decisions.
1. I'm going to study science
2. I'm going to learn sign language
3. I'm going to read books for blind people
4. I'm going to help my mum at housework
5. I'm going to learn how to take pro. photos
6. I'm going to be a really good and hardworking ballerina
7. I'm going to study hard. Less computer, more homework
8. I'm going to take lessons for physics and math
9. I'm going to have a tattoo
10. I'm going to write everyday (Not here, I have a special notebook for that)
Thats it for now

Continue to my comment to the previous writing. Luv ya, Kat :P

But we know each other's everything( account's passwords and all. She's my only friend that I know every number(cell, home, school-ok maybe not that, but I used to-) and can go to her house with my eyes closed. -Well, I do know that that one doesn't go for her, but that's beacuse of me.(we move around a lot, like we'll be moving out tomorrow-packing right now- and we've moved last year, and 5 years before that, and 4 years before that and 1 year before that. wait, that makes me eleven years or so. That's not right. Hmm. let's take a quick look. When I was born, we moved out a year later.(cause my dad was in the army and all.-not as duty, his job! He used to be a commander. Then he retired(like Ash's. Her father is like that too! Well, minus the retirement.;))Then another house. I don't exactly remember but I'm telling you what I was told. And then we moved(not sure after how many years.) And again(not sure again) and we moved. And after five years, we moved again, that brings us to present.We moved to this house. And now, we're moving again. And, honestly, I don't expect any of my friends, old friends especially, to know where I live. Well, they can know the area, but I don't expect them to come and surprise me. Well, I am surprised if I can get home at first. From that angle, I guess I envy Ash a little. I moved and changed schools a lot. That's why I don't actually have a lot of friends I keep in touch. I don't get enough time to make bonds and get to know them. I just pass right through. Like a ghost. Or more like a dream that you forget when you wake up. The longest place I stayed is around five years, that's when I met Ash and my other best friends. The house too. I don't keep in touch but if there was something big, I would call them, and I guess they'd do too, except, you know, not knowing the people and the age stuff (my best friend from where I lived-again, five years- is one year younger than me-and I'm two years senior to her in grades-, but that's not a problem between us, not unless there's a party with friends from school and things like that. One time, I remember she invited me to her birthday party, I guess I was 11 and she was 10, I remember getting there after a test in course after school, and it was already late but I went, wanting to give her her present, I went in and saw her in princess clothing, crown and all, and a clown was there and the whole princess theme birthday party. (how should I put it, hmm, my classmates were going to parties with alcohol, -I didn't but that's my enviroinment-) and when I saw those I felt awkward and had to go through a crowd wearing crowns and having slices from a pink birthday cake, and congratulated and gave her her present and pushed to have a slice, with feeling really awkward. They were around my shoulder for god's sake!

Raindrops (Ash)

So me...

I always wanted a place like that. My safe place, no one is allowed but me. A place that I could run away and stay forever.

Everyone should have that place. A safe place that no one can disturb you with a really nice view. But truth be told I have a place like that well "used to". It was my desk at my old class. Next to our school we have a Jewish cemetery and my old class is seeing it. Wierd huh? But well you can call me crazy but it is one of the most relaxing place on the world for me. In that cemetery there are lots and lots of palm trees and when you sit in my desk and look out you just see the palm trees. It feels like you are in a forest.

I really missed that place. But well no worries I'll find another place like that, who knows; maybe I'll find someone makes me feel like I'm in my safe place... <3

-Kat

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/7268696/1/

So, guys, I told you I became a fan girl, right? So, you might find it a bit odd maybe, but it has nothing to do with gender, they just suit! Yeah, I'm talking about Kakashi Hatake and Iruka Umino, characters from Naruto. Please watch that anime. It really is awesome and everytime I see Kakashi sensei, I kinda melt, yeah, Ash, now I understand what you mean. You know, with Taylor L. Except this is anime. Well, with other Tv series, you know, with real actors, I don't have a better chance anyway. ;DD  So, up there, that's my story. And if you read it, and then sign in and add it to your story alert and favorites of something like that, review and all, well, you'd make me really happy. Well, yes Ash, I am talking to you :P no, if we have any readers, they might take a look. But if you don't know Naruto, it might be a little hard to understand what I'm talking about.

<-- Kakashi


 

  Ok this one here isn't real but he looks hot. ;)

 



Well, if you watched the show, you'd understand actually how hot Kakashi is. tch. 

-kat

Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is
Just waiting
To turn your tears to roses

Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is
Just waiting
To turn your tears to roses

I will be the one that's gonna hold you
I will be the one that you run to
My love is
A burning, consuming fire

No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear the whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark

You feel so lonely and ragged
You lay here broken and naked
My love is
Just waiting
To clothe you in crimson roses

I will be the one that's gonna find you
I will be the one that's gonna guide you
My love is
A burning, consuming fire

No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear the whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark

No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear the whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark

Damn, I guess I'm starting to crave it...I saw the song in some fan fic. story, and now, I'm going down. hmmm...still, check it out. First, I was like, "oh, sure, good, I mean fine, not bad but not like perfect or anything." But then today, I found my self mumbling the song, which I couldn't remember the lyrics, so I couldn't remember the song. Then, ı decided to check the songs I recently downloaded and I listened to this and... well...uhm...I'm still listening. (^_~)

Babies don't come with an user guide (Ash)

Death,
It is seriously not fair.
Who would want to take an one-day-old kittens' life (For me it's killing)?
That's why I don't understand god.
You are curious aren't you?
Well yesterday we found a lost, abandoned, really little, one-day-old kitten.
Even her/his umbilical cord was there. But he/she couldn't make it...
Such a sad story for me...

-kat

So, Ash. You gonna tell us how much fun you've had??? ;)) -cause I'm pretty sure there aren't people who doesn't want you!( ;)) You are one of a kind! Appreciate yourself!! ;)     II            
     \\//

Meeting (Ash)

Today, I'm gonna meet with my friends from england (They live in Turkey acctually). The thing is I so nervous about this. Not the one with butterflies. I'm seriously uneasy. I don't know why. I just feel like they don't want me to come and hang around with them. I know it's kinda silly but I feel like I'm unwanted person who talks too much and empty and I think that they are gonna ditch me. But c'mon if they really didn't want me to come they could just meet without me, am I right?

Turkish after-titles! (Kat) (not subtitle but is "after-title" really a word??)

Like I promised:
Well, in turkish, it's like japanese, we sometimes add things after the name. Like, if you watch anime or read manga, you should know that like "Kat-chan" or "Ash-sama" (heh heh it's like lord(or female form of lord-if there is one-) Ash) :D or Naruto-kun and Sakura-chan would be better I guess, to explain, better than our nicknames I guess! :D - But it's not exactly like japanese because we call each other by name, but when the person you're talking to is older, that's when you need these- Yeah, and I don't know what japanese people use to call older or younger people,not exactly anyway, but in turkish, we go with family members. like if you're calling a woman around your mother's age(meaning old enough to be your mother), you call them "teyze" (pronounce: tay:zah) meaning aunt. and if you call a woman older than you but not old enough to call aunt, you call them "abla" (ub:luh) meaning older sister. And if they are men, it goes for them like old enough to be your father, calling them "amca" -uncle- and older man but not old enough, like a couple of years (more than 5 years range or more. but if you're familiar, of course you can call them by name)  "abi"(pronounced: uh:bee , but faster :P) -short for "ağabey"-.

 

love...hm... -Kat

So, going back to the subject 'love' I guess. I know if there are people out there, accually reading these, you probably wouldn't want to hear stuff (sorry, read stuff) again and again, or stay on one subject for too long. But, these are my opinions, and people who doesn't want to read it will skip it anyway so. . . =) As much as I appreciate Ash's belief about love, and the one, and prince charming and all, I really can't get myself to believe in them anymore. Like I said before, they are in the same category as Easter Bunny and tooth fairy, yes prince charming belongs with them! In the past, I really loved dreaming about how some guy would fall in love with me, and I'll fall in love with him, we would be the romeo and juliet without the tragic end. Yeah, as a little girl, those are the ideas that you grow up with. Everyone tells you how you'll get a husband and how you'll live happily ever after.Well, I really believed that. 'Used to' would be the right verb I guess.



And when you're a little girl, you play house, you have rag babies to play with, you have toy strollers for the rag babies and I know some girls that even had a pillow-husband!! That's how we were brought up!



As a kid, you wonder how your parents met first. And when you grow older, you watch romance movies, hear the kids around you are dating each other.(although I heard that they were dating, I never even saw them talking to each other, yeah that was how things were when I was nine)  And as a person who passed through your childhood listening to fairy tales about the prince charming (in turkish we call it the prince with white horse, so I guess that's what Ash meant when she first talked about love)



And, as for being weird, I used to hate romantic movies. -But not as much as I hated romance novels, no, I can never hate anything as much as I hate those. =) -  well now that I don't believe in love, I kinda started liking them. I am, right, weird? :D Although I don't believe they are real, I started reading mangas in romance (well, they are yaoi, thought it would be bad and might get disgusting, it actually turned out really sweet :D)
I read them as I'm reading science fiction: not completely impossible but not very true either.





well, first of all, I find love unnecessary and unrealistic.Take the math part:
 I think the odds are astronomical! Come on, admit it!! Two people (and if you count 'the one' theory) 'the one' could be anywhere on earth! The odds are 6 billion to one!!! I find it rather hard??  But if the possibility isn't zero, it is possible, doesn't matter how low the numbers are! -well, to be honest, that's my philosophy.



Then, I've never seen people in love!! Of course there is "dating", but I never saw anyone so in love, that last for a lifetime!! Well, my parents are divorced and hate each other, I never met any of my grandfathers, my younger aunt is divorced and my older aunt is, well, I'm gonna be honest, she's a little crazy. She is the only close family member whom I saw -and remember- married, I got two older -meaning really older, one 30-something, other 28, give or take- and I don't see love between them, marriage, yes, but not really mutual, romantic love and I'm sure as hell her husband isn't the prince charming! Well, she isn't the princess who's waiting for the prince either, so they are happy I guess.



Well, from my father's side( by side meaning his sisters) they are all happily married and bred. Except one unlucky one, her husband cheated on her and left her and the twins. Yeah, that didn't encourage me either. But I heard now that she's getting married again, to a man named Joe. He's american. Haha, I didn't see that coming! But I think she really deserves happiness because she's a really good woman and the twins are really sweet kids (I call them kids although they're only two years younger than me, well, they call me "Kat abla" meaning older sister. (I'll explain the titles(after titles? what??) later)

M.S.(Mid script-for those who doesn't know, P.S. is post script.-) And you guys know that "Kat" and "Ash" aren't our real names, right?! They are our nicknames we intend to keep. Or rather "pen name"s I guess. :D 


Yeah, back to the our subject, in my opinion, true love is platonic love. Loving selflessly, not posessive, not jealous, not "be mine or die". True love is peace, commitment, not expecting, not getting back because you got hurt. In short, love is pain. without pain, you can not understand true love, without getting hurt, you can not have love. True love lasts forever. It can not be erased. You can not move on. It does not mean happiness, it means you live for someone else's smile. It means someone's shed tears are your poison. It means you are a willing slave! 





I'm not saying that there are no people want each other physically or just want a kiss to be happy rest of their lives(which is not possible). They are hormones, like most of our personality. There's this thing called "soul" and I believe that. Don't get me wrong, I'm not an atheist or something. I believe. But I'm not exactly the blind follower. I'm not the sheep I used to be (as a kid, everyone is...o_o)

But the "passion" and the physical longing is mostly about chemicals in your brain.



But the soul longs to. Soul needs. But like I said, it's not wanting someone's body or wanting to see them. It's about feeling them, without touching. It's about seeing them without using your eyes. It's about being with them all the time not as flesh, but with soul. Having their warmth in you. Feeling safe. Then again, love could just be instincts to breed. Take your pick!!! :DD