-Kat

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/7268696/1/

So, guys, I told you I became a fan girl, right? So, you might find it a bit odd maybe, but it has nothing to do with gender, they just suit! Yeah, I'm talking about Kakashi Hatake and Iruka Umino, characters from Naruto. Please watch that anime. It really is awesome and everytime I see Kakashi sensei, I kinda melt, yeah, Ash, now I understand what you mean. You know, with Taylor L. Except this is anime. Well, with other Tv series, you know, with real actors, I don't have a better chance anyway. ;DD  So, up there, that's my story. And if you read it, and then sign in and add it to your story alert and favorites of something like that, review and all, well, you'd make me really happy. Well, yes Ash, I am talking to you :P no, if we have any readers, they might take a look. But if you don't know Naruto, it might be a little hard to understand what I'm talking about.

<-- Kakashi


 

  Ok this one here isn't real but he looks hot. ;)

 



Well, if you watched the show, you'd understand actually how hot Kakashi is. tch. 

-kat

Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is
Just waiting
To turn your tears to roses

Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is
Just waiting
To turn your tears to roses

I will be the one that's gonna hold you
I will be the one that you run to
My love is
A burning, consuming fire

No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear the whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark

You feel so lonely and ragged
You lay here broken and naked
My love is
Just waiting
To clothe you in crimson roses

I will be the one that's gonna find you
I will be the one that's gonna guide you
My love is
A burning, consuming fire

No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear the whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark

No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear the whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark

Damn, I guess I'm starting to crave it...I saw the song in some fan fic. story, and now, I'm going down. hmmm...still, check it out. First, I was like, "oh, sure, good, I mean fine, not bad but not like perfect or anything." But then today, I found my self mumbling the song, which I couldn't remember the lyrics, so I couldn't remember the song. Then, ı decided to check the songs I recently downloaded and I listened to this and... well...uhm...I'm still listening. (^_~)

Babies don't come with an user guide (Ash)

Death,
It is seriously not fair.
Who would want to take an one-day-old kittens' life (For me it's killing)?
That's why I don't understand god.
You are curious aren't you?
Well yesterday we found a lost, abandoned, really little, one-day-old kitten.
Even her/his umbilical cord was there. But he/she couldn't make it...
Such a sad story for me...

-kat

So, Ash. You gonna tell us how much fun you've had??? ;)) -cause I'm pretty sure there aren't people who doesn't want you!( ;)) You are one of a kind! Appreciate yourself!! ;)     II            
     \\//

Meeting (Ash)

Today, I'm gonna meet with my friends from england (They live in Turkey acctually). The thing is I so nervous about this. Not the one with butterflies. I'm seriously uneasy. I don't know why. I just feel like they don't want me to come and hang around with them. I know it's kinda silly but I feel like I'm unwanted person who talks too much and empty and I think that they are gonna ditch me. But c'mon if they really didn't want me to come they could just meet without me, am I right?

Turkish after-titles! (Kat) (not subtitle but is "after-title" really a word??)

Like I promised:
Well, in turkish, it's like japanese, we sometimes add things after the name. Like, if you watch anime or read manga, you should know that like "Kat-chan" or "Ash-sama" (heh heh it's like lord(or female form of lord-if there is one-) Ash) :D or Naruto-kun and Sakura-chan would be better I guess, to explain, better than our nicknames I guess! :D - But it's not exactly like japanese because we call each other by name, but when the person you're talking to is older, that's when you need these- Yeah, and I don't know what japanese people use to call older or younger people,not exactly anyway, but in turkish, we go with family members. like if you're calling a woman around your mother's age(meaning old enough to be your mother), you call them "teyze" (pronounce: tay:zah) meaning aunt. and if you call a woman older than you but not old enough to call aunt, you call them "abla" (ub:luh) meaning older sister. And if they are men, it goes for them like old enough to be your father, calling them "amca" -uncle- and older man but not old enough, like a couple of years (more than 5 years range or more. but if you're familiar, of course you can call them by name)  "abi"(pronounced: uh:bee , but faster :P) -short for "ağabey"-.

 

love...hm... -Kat

So, going back to the subject 'love' I guess. I know if there are people out there, accually reading these, you probably wouldn't want to hear stuff (sorry, read stuff) again and again, or stay on one subject for too long. But, these are my opinions, and people who doesn't want to read it will skip it anyway so. . . =) As much as I appreciate Ash's belief about love, and the one, and prince charming and all, I really can't get myself to believe in them anymore. Like I said before, they are in the same category as Easter Bunny and tooth fairy, yes prince charming belongs with them! In the past, I really loved dreaming about how some guy would fall in love with me, and I'll fall in love with him, we would be the romeo and juliet without the tragic end. Yeah, as a little girl, those are the ideas that you grow up with. Everyone tells you how you'll get a husband and how you'll live happily ever after.Well, I really believed that. 'Used to' would be the right verb I guess.



And when you're a little girl, you play house, you have rag babies to play with, you have toy strollers for the rag babies and I know some girls that even had a pillow-husband!! That's how we were brought up!



As a kid, you wonder how your parents met first. And when you grow older, you watch romance movies, hear the kids around you are dating each other.(although I heard that they were dating, I never even saw them talking to each other, yeah that was how things were when I was nine)  And as a person who passed through your childhood listening to fairy tales about the prince charming (in turkish we call it the prince with white horse, so I guess that's what Ash meant when she first talked about love)



And, as for being weird, I used to hate romantic movies. -But not as much as I hated romance novels, no, I can never hate anything as much as I hate those. =) -  well now that I don't believe in love, I kinda started liking them. I am, right, weird? :D Although I don't believe they are real, I started reading mangas in romance (well, they are yaoi, thought it would be bad and might get disgusting, it actually turned out really sweet :D)
I read them as I'm reading science fiction: not completely impossible but not very true either.





well, first of all, I find love unnecessary and unrealistic.Take the math part:
 I think the odds are astronomical! Come on, admit it!! Two people (and if you count 'the one' theory) 'the one' could be anywhere on earth! The odds are 6 billion to one!!! I find it rather hard??  But if the possibility isn't zero, it is possible, doesn't matter how low the numbers are! -well, to be honest, that's my philosophy.



Then, I've never seen people in love!! Of course there is "dating", but I never saw anyone so in love, that last for a lifetime!! Well, my parents are divorced and hate each other, I never met any of my grandfathers, my younger aunt is divorced and my older aunt is, well, I'm gonna be honest, she's a little crazy. She is the only close family member whom I saw -and remember- married, I got two older -meaning really older, one 30-something, other 28, give or take- and I don't see love between them, marriage, yes, but not really mutual, romantic love and I'm sure as hell her husband isn't the prince charming! Well, she isn't the princess who's waiting for the prince either, so they are happy I guess.



Well, from my father's side( by side meaning his sisters) they are all happily married and bred. Except one unlucky one, her husband cheated on her and left her and the twins. Yeah, that didn't encourage me either. But I heard now that she's getting married again, to a man named Joe. He's american. Haha, I didn't see that coming! But I think she really deserves happiness because she's a really good woman and the twins are really sweet kids (I call them kids although they're only two years younger than me, well, they call me "Kat abla" meaning older sister. (I'll explain the titles(after titles? what??) later)

M.S.(Mid script-for those who doesn't know, P.S. is post script.-) And you guys know that "Kat" and "Ash" aren't our real names, right?! They are our nicknames we intend to keep. Or rather "pen name"s I guess. :D 


Yeah, back to the our subject, in my opinion, true love is platonic love. Loving selflessly, not posessive, not jealous, not "be mine or die". True love is peace, commitment, not expecting, not getting back because you got hurt. In short, love is pain. without pain, you can not understand true love, without getting hurt, you can not have love. True love lasts forever. It can not be erased. You can not move on. It does not mean happiness, it means you live for someone else's smile. It means someone's shed tears are your poison. It means you are a willing slave! 





I'm not saying that there are no people want each other physically or just want a kiss to be happy rest of their lives(which is not possible). They are hormones, like most of our personality. There's this thing called "soul" and I believe that. Don't get me wrong, I'm not an atheist or something. I believe. But I'm not exactly the blind follower. I'm not the sheep I used to be (as a kid, everyone is...o_o)

But the "passion" and the physical longing is mostly about chemicals in your brain.



But the soul longs to. Soul needs. But like I said, it's not wanting someone's body or wanting to see them. It's about feeling them, without touching. It's about seeing them without using your eyes. It's about being with them all the time not as flesh, but with soul. Having their warmth in you. Feeling safe. Then again, love could just be instincts to breed. Take your pick!!! :DD